I’ve lost the best lady to ever walk the earth last week. Words truly can’t describe how lost I’m feeling right now. I keep smiling to everyone and saying I’m fine. But last night was the 6th night I cried myself to sleep. I know it’s apart of life that she’s gone and I also know she’s better on the other side as well as not being alone. But I feel horrid. I’ve been asked to share a memory at her funeral on the 30th but I won’t be able to see from my tears let alone talk. In spite of her passing I am very grateful to have had her as my nan. The only lady in my whole family that ever gave a monkey for me. No one knows the things I’ve written to her. My whole life has been disaster after disaster. But she made me feel normal. And feeling normal is a big thing for me! Oh nan. I just have to keep thinking you’re better off up there than you was down here with that horrid disease. (Dementia) I’m still going to write my letters to you.
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"…Ever had one of those days, where nothing seems to be going right?" -Winnie the Pooh
Another successful day :) food intake 607, exercise total -748 which leads today my best day in the past month! -141 calorie intake. Boom! Bring on the thigh gap!
500 calorie intake today. Very proud if myself. Also I managed to walk around for 4 hours. Living next to a hilly park sure does come in handy! Estimated burning of 483 calories which totals my intake as 17 calories :O
I am determined to be skinny by Christmas ^_^